I had a dream last night. I may not remember the full details but i know enough of it to make me want to record this down. This particular character, in my dream, is a special girl to me. Let's call her A.S, will explain it later. So, i was dreaming that this friend of mine was gonna go overseas and asked me along. I rejected but A.S wanted to go because she was able to pursue some dream there i think. A.S asked me to go along but i didnt want to, so they left. Like 15 mins or so later, i regretted my decision to not ask her to stay, or maybe i decided that i should go along with her. Went to find A.S. Some other things happened in between which i cannot remember. All i know was that I found her sitting at the steps near someplace. Her head was down and she appeared to be crying. 'Oh my, she didnt go afterall' i thought unconsciously. I sat by her and i talked and consoled her, dunno what did i have to console her abt in the dream =x I clasped her hand in mine. After a moment, A.S somehow calmed down and i brought her for a walk, holding her hands. Okay that's the gist of the dream. A random detail i remembered abt the dream- i bypassed a pet shop while looking for A.S and i saw a 3 headed something up for sale in a tank. It looked like a bird and ppl were taking pics with it. I think it resembled a dodrio from pokemon. LOL.
So why did i call her A.S here? As i sat by her on the steps, i saw her face. She reminded me of abby, my first eye candy after I Gave Up and hence the letter 'A'. As for the letter 'S', it's from the name Samantha. A.S may look like abby but she felt more like samantha. i dont know how to describe this 'felt like' but when I was with A.S, i just think that I'm with her. =/ Hence, i've come up with the name A.S for that girl in my dream. It's intriguing to see how A.S happens to be the first 2 letters for astarina.
Now that the dream is over, I had myself some thinking and made a decision. I tried to forget and get over you but it's to no avail because i'm always thinking of you every now and then. Instead of trying further, why not just let it be. Keeping you etched in my heart for what we've been through and love you for it. Haha.. geex. i sound immature. Perhaps I am. But that is how i wanna deal with this heartbreak. Lots of other exciting things still lay ahead of me, jy Eugene. Jy to you too, the samantha i once knew.Labels: samantha
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