Thursday, December 04, 2008
I was reading thru my old entries. I saw Marina. I saw Dave. It made me recall the time when i coughed up the 2 chapters. I was thinking of you. You were my inspiration for everything. You made me who i am. What we shared in the past, i realised, can NEVER be erased from my memory. The time when we first started talking to each other. How mel became the catalyst. Mel, if you happen to read this, i owe u a bunch! It wasn't easy but somehow we got together again. It's still a long time before the whole reaction stabilises or will it tend towards the 2nd law of thermodynamics? Things are still uncertain at this stage. Okay, we've since acquainted for more than 4 years. How much do i really know about you.. It didn't matter who you really were. All i knew was that, i enjoyed talking to you. I felt comfortable with you. I couldn't live w/o you. Sure enough, over the months, i felt.. slightly distanced, but it didnt affect our r/s.
And so.. the meetings came. We know what happened, I know how i felt. It wasn't hard but it just didnt piece together. I hid away the 3 moments. I hate to say it.. I still feel that something's hidden. Something that you don't want me to know. It's why i'm writing this particularly sensitive post. I want you to know, if there is something that i should know that you didn't tell me about, just be frank and tell me. No matter what it is, it's gonna make everything change for the better. I miss you baby, and i positive you know how i feel about you. What i've said have always been true from my heart. Don't take too much time, cos you never know how much time there is left...
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11:15:00 PM