__**requiem of life**_

Friday, August 08, 2008

sucks

I don't like where i am. Often, i'm cursing over my fortune to not be able to get to command sch. secondly, my luck to be where i am now. surely, it wouldn't have been that bad. yeah, it wouldn't have been bad if i had my bmt mates with me. we'll go thru these fine. but we're all separate now. at different places. it wouldn't have been bad if things nvr go wrong. the longer i stay there, the more i hate the system. will things turn out fine eventually? will my luck bring me all the way? i felt it at times. when it was with me. but it all seems a little too late isnt it. for the rest of the years, i will be there. i feel so demoralised and depressed after what happened today before we went out. worse when i got home to learn the truth. i rallied myself. i was gonna stand up to it. face it when no one dares or dont want to try. do or die, trying. i'm rdy. it feels as though there's nth holding me back. thinking of it, nothing bad can possibly happen. fatigue. what's it compared to a lifetime of sorrows? death. what's it compared to a lifetime without hope? fear. what's it when you have nothing on your conscience? Crush.

.::I've just locked an open door::.
.::Strange, yet symbolically compelling::.

[11:40:00 PM]

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